3D - dragon head WIP

Working out some color schemes. This is a screenshot of my 3D model lol, I wish I can say I drew that.

3D - Character Model - Plain Girl

I pulled my first all-nighter in 2010 for this very basic girl. It's quite unfinished. I may continue with it or start a new model, depending on the upcoming work load. I really want to make good character models, and the only way is to keep doing it till I get something right. (Just like how it is with everything else in life.) There is so much to learn. Now that I understand the process of 3D, it's becoming more enjoyable. I have also gained new appreciation for the artistry involved in the making of a video game.

But for now, sleep time.

ps: mass effect 2!!!!! *heartheartstarsstars* (no I'm not playing, but it's sitting in its nice tin box on my table, waiting for...summer)

Lifedrawing - Jan, 2010

I had some time for life drawing during the first couple of weeks of school. I'm so rusty, but it was much needed and much missed.

3D - Character Model - First Try

Wow...where to begin with this one. All I can say is...I started with a grand vision, and it died a little bit every step of the way. =D I've made so many mistakes on this one. Texturing was surprisingly fun, but I've got to push it more for my next model.

Fearless

The end of this semester approaches. There are a few more assignments to do before I can relax and enjoy the holidays. I have noticed changes within myself these past few months. I don't think I have gotten extremely stressed out over school and career at all, the way I had the last two years in the program. I have felt a little lost, and frustrated at learning 3D, but at the end of the day, I have been able to just refocus, and do the best I can.

I think this continues the theme of "letting go" that I have been exploring since the end of summer. Learning to see the big picture, and know that if I just do the best I can with the time I have, then there are no limits (no time limits as well,) only continuous growth. At the same time, I am able to be, for the most part, relaxed and happy despite the normal stresses of life.

And just as one part of me is at a good place, circumstance would reveal another side of me that I can work on. And when I reflect back to my past, I see the same pattern occurring at different points in my life. Right now, I am moving on to the next theme, which is "fearlessness." I don't have much to say about it right now, but to leave an inspiring quote:

“Make a radical change in your lifestyle & begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, & hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new & different sun. If you want to get more out of life, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security & adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you to be crazy. But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning & its incredible beauty.” — Jon Krakauer, Into the Wild

This doesn't mean I want to abandon my friends and start interacting with different people every day, or start country-hopping. But the principle behind it is something I want to apply to the way I interact with the world. Many times have I let opportunities go because I had too many fears. And then I wonder: what if?

I am very happy with where I am right now as a person. Of course I will keep changing and growing through experience, and sometimes I see "me" as the greatest artwork I can ever produce in my life. It will not be perfect, but I want to make it as good as possible. =)

But at the end of the day, no matter how "fearless" I aspire to be, I want to be sure that it is truly fearlessness and not "stupidity" or simply "being swept away by the tide." To do that I need to know what I want in life, stay true to my core values, and never lose sight of who I am at heart.